{home}

Day 3 of April Moon offered the word 'home' as a prompt.

Home is a funny thing to me at the moment, somewhat fraught I suppose.

We moved house about 6 weeks ago now, into a lovely new home. After lots of work it's all set up and looking beautiful. Things have a place and we are settling into new routines. I know that it's going to be a great place to live.

But right now, the move and the new house are all tied up with Holden's death, and the grief of losing him. Home doesn't feel like home without him. It feels like part of my family is missing and how can anywhere feel like home in those circumstances.

That's home at the moment. An odd mix of things.

{juicy}

Juicy is:

eating a mango pip over the sink with the juice running down my face

being consumed by a great book

gossiping with girlfriends

heart-to-heart conversations

sharing truths

lying in the sun on a warm day dreaming big dreams

Responding to day 2 of April Moon. All the deets here

{courage}

The lovely Kat McNally is hosting a reflective writing challenge called April Moon over the next fortnight, in honour of this glorious blood moon. As well as needing something to get the creative juices flowing I've had this really strong sense of April being the start of something for me. I feel an ending and a beginning taking place.

Here's a few things that came to mind when I considered the word courage today:

• Loving {peeps and fur peeps} in spite of the risks, the loss and the grief.
• Standing up to bullies and fighting an unfair dismissal from my former employer. Leaving a legacy for the treatment of other staff.
• Revisiting the past.
• Forgiving, myself and others.
• Stopping smoking for the umpteenth time {2 days free today}.
• Deciding to be ambitious this year.
• Getting up, and up again, no matter how many times I get knocked down.
• Choosing happy, choosing dreams, choosing to follow my bliss.

You can grab all the details on how to join in, and the gorgeous blog button, over here. Hope to see you there.