"If ever I had a good mind, it has been lost in the shuffle. I seem to have stagnated, and I am aware that I am not using any capacity I have to the fullest."
Meditations For Women Who Do Too Much
To know that someone has stood exactly where I stand, and found the words to articulate it, is such a blessing and a comfort at this moment. Suddenly I know that I'm not alone. That others have walked this troubled road.
And also to know that there are words to describe exactly how I'm feeling at the moment. This too is a great relief. I have felt like a prisoner in the silence, knowing that something has been eating away at me, but not being able to put my finger on the detail of it.
I don't know what happens next but finally I have a language for the constant state of boredom and inertia that has been troubling me for weeks.