Out of the darkness of the last week a path is starting to emerge. I'm re-examining decisions I've made in the past six months that now seem more like self sabotage. It's interesting this business of finding your way. Sometimes you think you've got it all figured out only to realise that everything you've been thinking is skewed through the lens of self-doubt. That all you've really been doing is holding back and protecting, nurturing and growing your giant fear of failure. {When I say 'you' and 'your' I really mean 'me' and 'my' but I thought perhaps you might feel this way too}
Ms L was right, this sickness was a catharsis. She knows her stuff that one.
Boy do I feel like I've got a long road to travel though. And I can hardly manage getting out of bed at the moment! I'm looking forward to the 'Do What You Love' e-course starting up in a couple of weeks. Feels like the timing may well be just perfect.
How strange. Out of the blue, I was just thinking about your love of old maps yesterday... and todays photo is a vintage map.
ReplyDeleteI'm really wishing that lurgy would just go back to whence it came. It's time for spring - we have things to do and fun to have!
Lots of interesting points there. I've developed a cyclic pattern of self doubt. I get really inspired and enthusiastic about something, create from it and then crest fallen when it doesn't sell. So I think I have to learn that my contentment and success has to be measured by the pleasure it gives to me in the moment....otherwise it will be a rollercoaster ride of emotions.
ReplyDeleteIt's a hard lesson to learn.
The flu has been a shocker this season. Get better soon!
I call it my choir of self doubt! I am trying to be gentle as I find my way and to quiet the choir. You will love the Do What You Love course! Beth does an amazing job.
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Oh wow! Yup! So know what you are saying!
ReplyDeleteI am the queen of self sabotage and grower of giant fears.