You got me thinking when I posted A List Of Big And Small Things a week or so ago. Was my list really too big? Too ambitious? Was I setting myself up for failure?
The thing I started to wonder about mostly was the nature of my list. When I wrote the list, I never thought about it the way I'd think of a 'to do' list. It was much more fluid than that.
There's some things on that list that I know will definitely happen. For example, the fact that I'm on an employment contract with an end date means that I'll definitely have to get a new job. Whether or not the new job is fulfilling, rewarding and enjoyable as my list states remains to be seen. I'm certainly working on understanding what I need, to increase my chances of finding what I'm looking for. My upcoming trip to the USA is another definite, and I'm pretty confident I'll have a fabulous time.
There are some things on the list that are goals. Like reading 13 books, and seeing my Mum more often. Losing 30kgs. These are pretty specific and I've worked out plans to achieve them. Again, things won't always go to plan, but I'm putting the things in place to give them the best chance.
Then there's the dreams, the wishes, the intentions. The things I hope for, the things I want to manifest. I don't really hold myself accountable for these. I just want to put them out there, to say to the universe 'these are the things I hope for myself and maybe they are meant to be'. These are the loose kinds of lists, the Mondo Beyondo kind. Things like take a trip to Port Douglas, writing a novel, move to a bright, spacious new house close to parks and the city, and spend NYE in Thailand. It will probably take a little bit of magic to make these happen.
At the end of the year I'll look back on the list and I'll reflect. I'll note the things that happened and those that didn't. I'll explore the year and all that it offered me. I'll take the position of an observer rather than an accountant. In doing so, I'll actually achieve one of the things on my list - 'Be kind, patient, trusting, understanding and calm with myself'.
But I'll tell you a little something. Sometimes the magic of a list is the willingness to dream, to wish, to hope. Sometimes the act of putting your intention out there is what brings your dreams closer to you. Sometimes you have to be willing to tell the Universe 'this is what I wish for, can you help me?.
So, how about you? Is there something you wish could happen this year? Why don't you write it here in the comments, and I'll be the keeper of your wish. Everyone who drops a wish in the comment box by Sunday night will go in the draw to win this collage.
Maps, acrylic paints, CurlyPops crazy stitching and assorted textiles on canvas