Cosy

It's been a lumpy, bumpy ride these past few weeks and I'm enjoying the luxury of a little more time off before I start my new job on Thursday. Just a couple of days but it's enough to ground me.

I'm taking time away from the studio this week, and from feeling like I need to always be creating something. Sometimes I try to force things a little too hard. I get scared that if I don't push forward with all my energy and drive that I'll miss an opportunity. It always seems to happen after I have a break through. I get a glimpse of what the future might look like and I want to race toward it. It's so powerful and mesmerising, and it feels so right. I can't stand to wait another day. I want it to manifest immediately, and when it doesn't I get panicked. How do I make it happen? What should I be doing more of to get where I'm going quicker? How can I make sure that I don't lose my way?

Oh yes, I like the safety of the well signed road. But this journey is not written yet. This story is unfolding day by day.

I'm learning, slowly and continuously, about letting go. About letting the journey unfold in it's own good time. I don't have to do it all alone. I don't have to have all the answers or know exactly what comes next. I just have to trust that I know where I'm heading and leave the universe to take care of some of the detail. That's what I'm working on at the moment. Leaving some of the detail to the universe.

It's a gorgeous grey old day in Melbourne town today. One of those days that feels peaceful and that lends itself to curling up on the couch with a good book or some craft, some tasty snacks and a cosy blanket.

It's a cosy kind of day. Cosy days are good days. Today is a good day.